Stuff happens. That's what life is about, really. Stuff happens and sometimes it suits us, sometimes it doesn't. Sure, it's a pain in the ass when stuff goes wrong, but what's there really to worry about. The way I see things, anything and everything that happens can bring us something, some kind of satisfaction, some kind of teaching, some kind of good element. The thing to do here is to grab on to that positive chunk and suck on it for all it's worth, feed on it, learn from it. However bad and shitty a situation can be at first, if you manage to learn something from it, then you'll never ever see the said situation as fundamentally shitty.

Another thing : satisfaction as to the work you put into something versus satisfaction as to the result you can get. Two very different things. Results are the combination of the work you put into something and of various other elements that always come into play (some call them fate, others luck - or bad luck) and over most of which you have absolutely no control. The work you put in, though, is entirely up to you and for that reason should be considered independently from the end results. You went from point A to point B entirely on your own, worked hard for it, and no matter what happens once you get to point B, whatever the results you get, all your work still has a meaning. In relation to the first part of this entry, your work is a very positive element from which you can take much, learn much, gather much confidence and through all this, grow as a person.

I grew a lot in fall 2008. I am growing again this fall. It hurts, obviously, but I know last time, the pain was SO worth everything I learned that even if it had been double of triple what it was, it would still have been an amazing deal.

That's it for this entry.